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Dean's got this insane plan to rescue Castiel from the clutches of the Empty. Jack turns Dean into an angel, Dean kicks the bucket, dives into the Empty, finds Castiel, nabs his grace, turns him human, Jack brings Dean back to life, and then reverses the whole shebang. Sounds simple, right? Well, they underestimated the Empty, that asshole.
Dean strikes a questionable deal with said asshole, and now Castiel has to give Dean a crash course in angel stuff while Dean tries to teach Castiel how to be human. They both despise it, but hey, at least they're both breathing and since Castiel is back, Dean is (trying to be) ready for the next step: Love.
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College was supposed to be the beginning of his life. Not the end of his brother's.
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Dean Winchesters attempts suicide on a dirty motel bathtub, ending brain dead on a hospital. A trickster promises John and Sam that he will save him for “free”, as long as they both get through watching a series of Dean´s memories, good and bad. The twist is that they will feel everything Dean did at the time and they can stop it at any time, but then Dean will die. They both accept thinking it cant be that bad. Spoiler: it is worse.
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Dean is not like other people. Dean is not afraid of death, he is friends with it
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After their meeting to discuss the attack on Lucifer, Endverse Dean goes to visit Endverse Cas. Angry that he was flirting with his past self. After Cas calls him out on his suicidal plan he feels his anger falling away to sorrow, and feels his inhibitions failing once he finally feels those beautiful lips of Cas’s on his own.
When Dean finally gets home from seeing his future self. He has to decide whether to heed the man’s words and finally admit his feelings for Cas.
Or spend his life living a lie, until it’s too late.
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A frightened, trans teen Dean resorts to prayer and a kind angel comes to the rescue.
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Febuwhump Day 26 - “Please Don’t Do This”
The pressure of being the Guardian comes to a head when Dean takes extreme (and unnecessarily dangerous) measures on a case.
The episode "Advanced Thanatology" written into the Brotherhood.
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- Part 20 of Brotherhood AU
- Part 14 of Febuwhump 2022
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Damage Control - 2x09 Croatoan by under_my_blue_umbrella
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
18 Apr 2024
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Sam's been infected with the Croatoan virus - or at least they have every reason to think he is. While waiting for him to turn into a monster, Dean has his own thoughts on how the night will turn out.
(Please read the tags! Trigger warnings for suicidal thoughts!)
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- Part 19 of Damage Control
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If Only You Return To Me by arlingtonchamberofgay
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005), The Winchesters (TV 2022)
09 Apr 2024
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The world has been saved, yet again, but this time, Dean is forced to carry on without his best friend. His best friend, who loved him. In true Winchester fashion, Dean decides to shove down and bury his feelings about the last words that Cas said to him and the implications thereof. Instead he buries himself in alcohol, hunting, and stupid ass decisions. After a failed rescue attempt in the Empty, he’s forced to reassess what his life looks like without the angel. Until, one day, a run of the mill hunt goes wrong because of a small bit of rebar.
Castiel somehow awakens in the Empty, much to the Shadow’s ever growing annoyance. After making a deal to return to Earth to find Dean in exchange for his grace, Cas finds himself in the same room he last saw the man. He’s devastated to discover that he’s too late, Dean is dead and in Heaven. Realizing there's no point to coming back to a world without Dean, Cas goes to Heaven to speak with Jack in hopes of figuring out a way to get back to Dean and actually stay around. Of course, it's more complicated than they expect.
Dean and Cas are desperate to find their way back to each other, but the universe seems to be working hard to keep them apart.
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better in the morning by deansdandelionedhair, Diana911
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005), Gilmore Girls
27 Mar 2024
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au verse.
when john winchester leaves 18 year old dean and almost 14 year old sam on the side of the road, with the promise that their uncle, mary's older brother luke would look after them - the boys never pictured finding their roots and happiness in the small town of Stars Hollow. sure, the town was weird, and the people even weirder, but it was more of a home than the winchester boys had ever had. so really, what's the harm with learning to love it?
written in lowercase on h.e.'s chapters.
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Dean is seventeen, the first time he thinks about dying.
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What if Sam was the one who died in the finale? Mind the tags.
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- Part 1 of What If...
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Footsteps. More than one set, all in work boots that thudded against the floor as they came closer. There was the sound of guns cocking. Sam watched as one, two, three, four people came into his vision. Two men, two women, all armed.
Somehow, he already knew. They were hunters.
They were getting revenge.
“Sam Winchester,” one of the women said, as if he was some household name. “Who would have thought one of John’s boys would go rogue? The irony is just–”
She stepped closer, inches away from his face.
“Killing me,” she sneered.
(Steve Wandell's buddies want to get revenge for his murder. Sam does not have a good time.)
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An arm for an arm, and his eyes for Cas by harleenlunanight
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
25 Feb 2024
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-What would you be willing to give, to get your angel back?- the Empty asks Dean
-Anything- Dean respondsBased off a tumblr post on the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice, that said that if Dean was Orpheus, he would never have seen Cas again, I upped it and decided how about we make it angstier.
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The emotions ring as hollow as they did the last time Sam was here at Singer's Salvage Yard, but he was alongside Dean when they faced off with Crowley. More of the grass has taken over, tufts of weeds wrapping around wheel wells and new layers of dirt blown in from the weather on car seats through broken windows.
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- Part 6 of SPN rewatch drabbles
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It has been a year since Castiel died, yet, Dean sees him everywhere. Well... only when he's on the brink of death. Which brings us to another problem... how far will Dean go to just see his best friend?
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After stopping Sam from completing the task at the church, Dean remains in the hospital fearing for his brother's life. As Sam wrestles with death in a coma, Dean realizes how much his own life depends on his brother's... because Sam is his lifeline
A reflection of the Season 8 finale and the beginning of Season 9. Can be read as either slash or gen.
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Dear Dean,
Remember: no man is a failure who has friends. Thanks for the wings!
Love, Clarence.-------------------------------
An "It's A Wonderful Life" AU because it's the holidays and George Bailey is so Dean Winchester-coded.
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After the events of season 15 episode 19 things take a different turn when dean finally has to face what happened to castiel and what it means. He desperately looks for a way to bring back his best friend while dealing with crippling grief and regret.
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What happened if Cas didn't come back to Dean after Sam and Adam fell to the cage in S5 E22, Swan Song? What if Lisa had moved on and Dean was alone.
Dean really struggled with being alone during the show. This one chapter story shows what could have happened if he was truly alone.